True Friends Stab You In The Front

So, recently I realized how many of my really good friends I'm not really close to anymore and it really bothered me. I'm not talking about the people I got into a fight with and now we don't talk cause of some wrong done against one or the other. I'm talking about all the people I really care for that I just sorta grew apart from. It sucks to think that I let them fall away. No. Scratch that. It sucks to think that I fell away. I was in a bad spot in my life for a while but now that I've gotten beyond that I'm going to try to make amends with the people that I let go of. I guess what it took was for a few of those people to seek me out and try to rebuild the bridge that connected us.

So now I'm going to try my best to strengthen all the friendship I am currently more active with and rebuild on the ones that I haven't put effort into lately. I know I won't always be able to be there for everyone and I don't have all the right answers, but I'm always here to listen. I'll never turn away someone that needs someone to talk to. It's going to be a long road and it'll be tiresome but it'll all be worth it in the long run. I tend to spread myself too thin when it comes to my different friendships but I am confident the results will justify all the energy spent.

One thing that I have noticed is that I let other things hold me back and I'm tired of that. I'm tired of letting other obligations keep me from pursuing other ventures. As much as I am doing this for the sake of my friendships with everyone, I'm mostly doing it for myself. I'm changing my life little by little and all I'm asking is that I get support in this.