This is the story of unchained momentum

So last month I was really down on life. For the longest time I was trying to find a reason. I was thinking it was my lack of time with friends I used to spend every waking moment with. Then I started thinking it was me, not being able to accomplish anything in life. But, what I have found is that it was the distance between me and the one person I should really worry about. GOD. After having a long talk about it with a few dudes, I realized how distant I was from him, and how that was affecting my relationships with others. Even my relationship with Pauline was going down hill because the love was fading. That's when it hit me: GOD is LOVE. I've heard it a million times, but it finally hit home. I realized that until I learned to love Him again, I wouldn't be able to love anyone else the same. Now that I've come over that, things are back on track. I'm happy again.

If you ever feel down and out, just get some of your close friends together and start a discussion about Skynet. That's all it took for me. haha

I lie to myself cause I do it best

So I used to help run a street team for this band called Cetas Aspire. It was so much fun. Even though they weren't a huge signed band or anything, I still was excited to be working with the band directly. I listen to them so much every day that eventually I started commenting them and they started responding. After that, I joined the street team and they noticed I was really interested in being involved. They asked me to help moderate their myspace and to help organize things. I did some stuff and did some hands on work as well. That was one of my favorite memories. We stayed up all night making these T-shirts for the street team only to go pass out thousands of fliers and CDs at Coachellafest. Wow its hard to imagine that was almost a year ago. 

Anyway, back to the whole reason I was writing this.... I really want to get those guys back out here to start playing shows. They put on such an awesome live show and their music is no less than captivating. I'm talking to Steven Kippel about getting them to play out here but it's not exactly for sure. I am going to try my best to go to his next show so that I can give him the Cetas Aspire demo. I'm sure he'll like them. So anyway, I want to start getting more involved, so I'm definitely going to start spreading the word again. I'm going to Bring Back Love.

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?

I used to love this place so much. I used to love the desert. I used to hassle anyone that said they hated the desert and gave them 20 reasons why its so awesome here. I guess I forgot those reasons because right now, the is the last place I want to be. I want to get out of here finally.

I never used to be like this. I don't know what happened. Maybe it's cause I'm living at home again. Something about this house gets to me. Maybe it's my relationship with my parents? Maybe it's the way they seem to expect failure from me? That has to be it. It's starting to take a toll on me. I'm not the same person anymore. I've become too familiar with defeat.

I might just be running away from my problems but fuck it.